Day 365
Well, here I am … closing in on the end of my year of blogging. I must have messed up my numbering somehow as I came up with 367 days this year! Don’t I wish. I could have used an extra 24 hours even after that leap year day. But knowing me, I would have used it cleaning out a closet or doing something equally as stupid. Squandered time!
It’s been a journey … some days I really didn’t want to write anything, but isn’t that what a challenge is all about – to push yourself to do things especially when you don’t want to do them? I don’t know if it’s made me any better of a writer. More disciplined? Yes. More creative? Yes. Better? Um, not so sure.
But whatever … it’s been great and I’ve enjoyed it.
It feels good to have accomplished this because when I was starting out I was about a week in and said to myself, “Girl, what the hell have you gotten yourself into?” But I’m glad I did this. I’m glad I stuck it out.
I’m not sure how I feel about this all coming to an end … I guess I have two more days to really decide if I want to continue … or not. Maybe I’ll do it … but not every day. Who knows? We shall see.
And actually, it came at a good time in my life. I had a lot of changes this past year and it was therapeutic for me to write so much and it kept me in contact with so many … even if it was a one-sided correspondence (hint, hint – email me!).
In any case, I learned a lot. About topics I researched, about my soul that I searched, about me – what I want, what I don’t. And I learned that I can sit down without any idea of what I’d want to say and half an hour later I’d have published 500-1000 words. I have always gotten a kick out of that brain-hand connection … and sometimes I don’t even pay attention to what I’m thinking as it just flows along some hidden circuitry from my little pink brain to my hands on this keyboard.
I find it amazing and exciting, freeing and totally fun – kind of like standing up in a convertible while it’s going down some country road. (Not that I’ve ever done that – but I think it might be a similar feeling!)
And it makes me realize that this is what brings me great joy. Writing. Plainly and simply … writing is what I should do. Writing is what I need to do. Now I just have to figure out HOW to go about doing it!
I watched Beyoncé during the Superbowl half-time show tonight … marveling at her thighs of steel. No one will ever (and I mean ever) marvel over my thighs (of jello) … but I know that some marvel over how easily the written word flows out of me. A gift, I suppose. A nice one.
Over this past year I’ve learned that I do a LOT of thinking while in the shower or when driving – so much, in fact, that I’m thinking of installing a shower in my car. I’d just need a computer in there and then I’d be all set. Throw in a coffeepot and it would be Heaven!
In any case … I’ve enjoyed this year of writing and I appreciate the comments and emails back saying how much you, my dear readers, have enjoyed them, as well. It’s nice to know that I have breakfast with so many of you … and put so many of you to sleep at night (in a good way, hopefully)!
I’ve got two more days … so stay with me, I’m not done … YET!